<body>
THE JOURNEY
of how far we came, in words of mine.

It was all in His plans for me to study in Sydney. Now that I'm here, it's up to me to shine His light.

FLIGHT 818 .




unspoken .





credits .

Designer: x x x
Image: x
Hosts: x x x
Style: x
Font: x



FLY AWAY TO SYD
on the journey to Sydney.

4 years in Sydney is an awefully long time.
Catch me before I fly away, cause I'm having the time of my life.
Friends come and go, but the close ones never part irregardless of the distance.


Wednesday, September 24, 2008
23:00

If a chick flick makes your day, I say, why not?

Another Cinderella Story


20:51

Shu wants to be at the F1 Grand Prix in Singapore! :(

Shu has gone back to her instant noodles eating days. The only consolation is that there is a better variety of noodles and dishes, and NO MORE sausages.


Tuesday, September 23, 2008
23:45

The wounds on my finger has yet to recover, but my emotions have settled. I've accepted things for the way they are. Whether is it my fault or no fault of mine.. It's okay, because I have other things to worry about now.

I shouldn't never have blamed you.

-

Devoting all energy I have to work.


Monday, September 22, 2008
23:11

I'm actually proud of myself. :D
Despite being sleep deprived, I've managed to survive on a 4 hours sleep for the past few nights, waking up at about 6-7am to do some work before sleeping for another hour or so. The more I study, the more thrifty I get! Which is good, because I'm quite tight on cash. :/ This also means that I've been eating less, because there isn't much food at home.

The only flaw, which is probably very bad, is that I've been having lots of irregular mood swings. Yea, I've been pretty moody recently. It hasnt got to do with the weather, but it could have contributed a tad to it! The humidity at night is killing me!

Thankfully I talked to Amelia online last night. She was God sent by signing in at the time when I needed someone. A listening ear to my recent frustrations. I must say that they have been accumulated frustrations over the whole year, and it really gets in my face ever so often. I just needed to vent it out that night, and she was there. (:

Right, and point was made very clear to me. I do have an alcohol addiction. I've tried curbing it, and until recently, the plan succeeded. Yes, I've taken to drinking excessively again. And it always happens when I'm moody and down. Hopefully my new found motivation to study and do well will curb it.

OH WAIT! What am I doing now? Drinking a bottle of beer in my room! The only good thing is that this is the last bottle. Now, as long as I do not buy another pack home, I should be safe. But, I still have cravings to get another pack.

Well well.

Shuwen, your f-ing broke. so please spend your money wisely! Hopefully that helps. :/


02:02

I'm sorry to have doubted you, and doubted myself. I should have placed more trust and faith in you. I promise to try again. Try harder at making things work out and to rest with you for support.


Sunday, September 21, 2008
23:23

Yes, I'm stubborn. I'm irrational.
That's my problem.
What have you got to do with it?

There's an underlying reason to my stubbornness, but no one has to know about it except me.


18:04

Hi Blog!

The weather here in Sydney is turning very warm these few days. Love the weather. It just gets a bit too warm at night, and i have to kick away my comforter.

Going to be very busy from today, till Melbourne and then back to Sydney, all the way to exams! I hope I have the strength to last through the whole thing. Tiring and tedious, I need a personal retreat back in Singapore.

Really hope I can pass Econometrics or even get a low Credit. I'll just be so thankful. But I know I have to work for it, and I haven't been working hard enough for any of my modules this semester. At least, I think I can do so much better.

Can't wait to see my Aunt in Melbourne. Not very close to her, but she's still family. I guess it makes a lot of difference to have even a distant relative in relatively close proximity.

Got to carry on with my Job Hunting at the end of the year! Sigh. I'll leave tht till tuesday. Haha. Okay. That's all folks.

Going to try the so-called best Satay in Sydney now.


Thursday, September 18, 2008
21:27

Feeling so terrible now! I have like cuts on my hand, I feel like I'm having a headache and all. Been doing activities that I shouldn't be engaging in. Rebellious streak is acting up in me again. I don't know.

Please do not ask.


Wednesday, September 17, 2008
23:43

Went for a good dinner last night. Absolute fine dining. I can't really show the pictures because the website doesn't allow me to copy and paste! Just check out http://www.thebentley.com.au/ yupps. My bill came up to $190 for 2 person! terrible. wait till my mother finds out about this.

Ordered 3 Tapas, 1 Entree, 2 Mains, 2 Desserts, 2 glasses of Pinot Noir, 2 Camomile Tea.

Like they said, it was a Rolls-Royce experience. One not to be missed WHEN YOU HAVE THE MONEY.


Tuesday, September 16, 2008
02:38

I can't sleep! Urgh. Been tossing and turning for the past one and a half hours until i decided to open my laptop. My head is thinking about thousand and one things. Just like old times... Insomnia is creeping in again. The time now reads 240am, and I have to wake up at 740am. Great, perfect!

Father, please answer my prayers and give me a peace of mind so that I can sleep.


Sunday, September 14, 2008
17:46

A bruised toe, a sore back, and aching legs. This is the price I paid to go Melbourne, not to forget, I'm missing D&D. Sigh. Melbourne better be worth all the pain, torture and niggling injuries.

I'm happy with the way I play doubles. I just have to keep all my shots in. But the way I play singles is horrible to say the least. I need the stamina to go with it, and the patience. Sigh. Hopefully I'm not an embarrassment when I'm playing singles. :/


Saturday, September 13, 2008
00:21

Was out the whole day. Been having this habit of going out the entire day, and returning home only to bathe, use the laptop, and sleep. Good habit, cause I know I'm using my time wisely when I'm out of house. As much as I wanted to sleep or use the internet in the library, I'm glad that all the terminals were full and that I didn;t bring my laptop to school. I spent some quality time studying in the library and I was really glad I did.

-

I wanted to tell my whole story, but I couldn't. Sometimes, I think that my life to date is interesting enough to publish a whole novel...


00:20

I'm at my wits end, but please I pray, let me be of help to you.


Thursday, September 11, 2008
23:50

Invisible.

If Accounting is for the anal, Finance for the people with some common sense, & econometrics is for the retarded..

Then I must be one helluva person with common sense, and yet anal-ish retard!

-

In life, you choose who you want to be and what you want. So don't blame others when life is not up to your liking. You made your stand and chose your path. Either you change it, or you continue to live in regrets.

-

I feel like eating tua suan, cheng teng and barley gingko now. :(


Wednesday, September 10, 2008
22:56

I've found meaning. :)

Contented and Motivated.
This is a great way to start all over again.

Again and again, it never stops does it?


00:30

uncle paranoid,

SMILE :D

-aunt agony


Monday, September 08, 2008
22:20

All alone, I'm pondering about everything that has happened. Events, behaviour, and people. My walls are up, my guard on near 'alert' mode. Putting aside my frustrations and disappointments, I focus all my thoughts on my studies. I'm happier, to say the least. I spent 2 hours in the library today. I rather study and eat out now than stay at home. A change in attitudes. I've stopped streaming daily. I'm reading a few chapters of my storybook before I go to bed. I'm back to my old self. Yes, I'm happier - this is me trying very hard to convince myself. I need to be serious, so unknowingly, I've stopped laughing.

-

As I try once more to direct all my strength and energy to my work, I find myself soaring again. Fly away, Shu. You're not one who likes to be restricted. Drop your chains, free yourself and take off from there. Fly, fly far away..

Excel in it and you'll be duly rewarded. Dream, and you'll be like the eagle in the skies.. Conquering it all.


Saturday, September 06, 2008
23:51

Seriously, what was I thinking? My actions are irrational, based entirely on my illogical emotions at that instant. And the moment after I say those hurtful words, I regret it. Why can't I just please everyone? Why do I have expectations knowing I'll end up being disappointed? I should just shut up in the future. Yes, I should.


Friday, September 05, 2008
00:12

The studying plan failed terribly today. Haha. But I'm not stressed out about not studying now. I've straightened out my thoughts, and I know I will study hard for the remaining few weeks. Yay!

Thursday is My Weekly Housework Day! And just as I was about to start vacuuming my room, the vacuum shut down on me! Sheesh. Thankfully, my mum sent the Magic Clean in time. Used it to clean the whole apartment, except for my room, which is carpeted.

-

Updates:

I'm going to Melbourne for the semester break, for about 10 days. Going to spend quality time with my Aunt and Uncle there and play Badminton too! Not that I'm extremely excited about Badminton. Neither am I practising hard for it. We'll see how it goes. I'll play my best, with the limited ability that I have. Yupps. Just hoping that all will turn out well, and that my injuries will not accumulate!

Watched Law Revue yesterday. Amidst all the political and racist jokes, there was one part which I hope I didn't have to see. Naked guys on stage, well, almost. And one of them happened to be my friend...

Cooked for myself today. First time in a month that I've boiled rice at home or even whip up a decent dish. But please don't ask me what I cooked. It was so mixed and match that I really don't want people to know. Haha.


Wednesday, September 03, 2008
00:04

I tried, and I gave up. Prayed for a miracle, but I'm not sure if it'll be answered. The result is a possibility of failing my econometrics mid-semesters. A wake-up call, maybe? I think I need it. Upholding the tradition of failing something every semester. I just hope that its not as bad as i think it is. and i hope tht i'm not the only one who thinks so.

Had an expensive dinner tonight. To cheer myself up, relax, and hopefully gather enough strength till the end of the semester. I need it... Relaxing, chill out moments to cheer me up. I'm getting too emo, too depressed.. So hard to comprehend, so difficult to catch my mood swings.

I'll strive to improve on that aspect.

-

Okay, my thoughts are so random. I'm signing off.